quest for all-stars

[Natalie White]

Just have a bad feeling this Tribal will be another power play with the vote. I'm really getting tired of this. Greatly fear I may be out on this round.

[Natalie White]

Not Rob. This sucks.

[Natalie White]

Having a tough time with this elimination, and have had the momentum taken away from me. Really hoped we could get to a position of majority. Obviously Aras isn't going to allow that and has his own bootlist that we will all just follow unless we get our crap together and work with someone on the other side to take him out. That's my next move I think. Taj and I have always been on decent terms, and I think we could talk about it at least. Gonna have to think on that one for a bit. As for the challenge, maybe I'll care later. For now, this game isn't gonna be the same without Rob. It was Rob, Randy and I for a long time, and I knew I could trust them both completely. That's a very comforting place to be. Hoping very much that Rob has earned a spot in All-Stars with his amazing personality and game. I would be so happy to see him there. He would make the stress of All Stars completely worth it.

This round, we were told by Aras and Ethan that they would flip. Odds were one would, neither did. We decided to keep the idol safe so that it couldn't land on the other side of the game at the next TC. Several things went into that decision. One being we should have had the numbers if either of the 2 flipped. And 2 we were told 3 of 4 people were the target which really meant any one of the 4 could have truly been their target. How do you choose where to play the idol under those circumstances? In the last couple rounds they went for Tom and Randy. I really thought my name would come up next as I had been winning immunity and did not win this round. I was actually really hoping if the people backstabbed us and didn't flip that the person going home would be me. I think that made losing Rob that much worse. I hope he knows I'd trade him spots in a minute to let him back in the game. I really think he's pretty darn great and will miss him a lot.

[Natalie White]

It's funny realizing now that my confessional title was just a sarcastic comment at the beginning of the game. As I got to know Rob and Randy my game has very much turned into an attempt to see those two guys make All-Stars So I guess the title fits better than I expected. lol

[Jaime Huffman]

I know this one was tough on you. *hugs*

[Natalie White]

Thanks, and now it's feeling even worse with other issues.

[Natalie White]

There is a lot I could say, but just won't go there. Obviously, I'm disappointed to be out of the game and feel very badly for not being able to do more for Randy. Just hope he can get something to work in the next few rounds, but I don't see it happening. For whatever reason talking with Yul last night was very comforting. He really understood the initial impact of being out of this game and it was nice to hear that I wasn't the only one so completely invested in it. I think it has been that way for a lot of people. I even read a comment by Cirie that seemed to say much the same thing. I guess that's what it took to get to this point, but it also made leaving that much more difficult.

I thought so many times this game was going to kill me.lol Without Rob and Randy I probably would have quit a long time ago. They really made the game worth it. My heart is completely sold on those 2 and hope so much that they will both be in All Stars.

[Natalie White]

Well, the hurt continues. Really unbelieveable the things I have been told since the end of the game. They have hurt worse than getting voted out. Nothing like kicking ya when you are down. Ouch!

[Christa Hastie]

care to share

[Natalie White]

I have talked through some of it. It is getting better so that's good, but no I won't name situations or people.

[Christa Hastie]

ok

[Natalie White]

Randy did it! ;D He is in the FTC and it's he and Tom. I am so happy that those two are in the finals.

Now to figure out questions. I have a few ideas, but I'm open to suggestions..... Anyone??

[Natalie White]

Oh my gosh! I have been talking with Aras and he truly plans to vote based solely on their football picks. Wow! He did say he would read through their answers more, but as of now he couldn't decide.

[Jaime Huffman]

LOL, that's bad! You did a nice job with your questions

[Natalie White]

thanks